May take a break for a while . . . pain is out of control
I may take a break from the boards. I will miss everyone a great deal. I'm having serious pain problems now and sadly, posting here is exacerbating my pain. I feel deeply frustrated and sad. Something happened a couple days ago that I don't seem to be able to get past right now. But, everything looks different in the daylight..So, maybe it will be a short vacation!
I could have used one of you at side at my appt. today as I blew a hole through my pain management by practically insisting that I was on too high a dose and that I was concerned about my tolerance. I managed to get the doctor just as worried as I was [she wasn't even remotely concerned before I dug my own grave, now she's thinking she needs to refer me to a clinic b/c she doesn't have the expertise to handle my pain issues...I *am* concerned, and didn't want her to just keep piling on more meds that weren't working, but I think I could have managed to keep the dose down and get her to slowly switch me back to the patch [which *does* work) instead of convincing her that I had tolerance issues that were beyond her capacity to address (they *are*,but I'm not sure a pain clinic is going to be a lot better at handling this. Don't know if what I said can be "undone" now. I'm also in a TON of pain and don't need her giving up right now. I swear, I feel like I need a babysitter sometimes --someone needs to be at my side to *pinch* me when I'm digging my own grave....
Last edited by Confused089; 09-11-2008 at 01:46 AM.