Hey everyone..
I am so sorry for not continuing to post on a regular basis. So I do apologize for not doing so...But I need you all for support and will be glad to return that support tomorrow as after I make this post I will try and go to sleep....
I have or had been in the process of decreasing my meds with my OM since my surgery last Sept. for ACDF of C 4-6 was going well and I felt it was time.
I have been going through many things all at the same time but really is no excuse to not drop in herar.
My Parents or having a tough time financially, my best friend moved away, a close friend had surgery that was a scare, I am in 12 step recovery and learned of a friend who comitted suicide because for this person it seemes a way out, and I also had to change my 12 step sponsor for resons better kept for another area of HB...and all these things happened during the same time of the decrease, and the begining of the knee stuff
Also as I was decreasing I was feeling a bit better adn relaeased to go to the Gym by my ortho surgeon.
I was and still am but have not had any lately ....going through some trigger poit or "needling" as my PM calls them injections for the myofacial pain that is still a problem that I continue to have that causes pain inbetween my shoulder blades, but even with the decrease in meds the inj's and the PT therapist doing myofacial realse on that area and then the gym exerscise i was feeling like I was finally making good progress.
The one day after a gym session I had my knee swell up and pain...I went to the Ortho practice I have my ortho spinal specialist and saw a different doctor about my knee.
I have since tried some PT and had an MRI and X rays that show a tear in the Medial retinaculum.
It has prgressivley gotten worse and the swelling is uncontrolable.
I have had a tracking problem of my patella's on both knee's al my life and was basically told approx. 20 yrs ago I needed to have surgery but did not want to have it then...So the MRI showed some old injury and the ortho really did not think the inury happened at the gym...he said it was old...weird but that is what he said.
I knew what was comming! Surgery!
It is very tireing to me to think of how many things i have been through and some of those many right here on this board...that I have worked hard to get better from the chronic pai and injury only to find that it is short lived and some "thing" will happen and the next thing I know I am in constant pain again and filling my calendar with PT, PM, and various other doctor appt's and procedures....
All the while the knee thing is transpiring the above things took place as well
So I have reclused a bit from this board and I am sorry for doing so...I am now finding I need to have you all back in my routine at the very least a few times a week.
I have already been through all the sad and depressed states this new and/or old now new injury has brought on. I had a person tell me she noticed I had started to go negative and then spiral downward when the knee thing came on and I had to take a hard look and addmitt she was right and that I need to do my best in the midst of all lifes happenings to pull myself together and dig deep within myself to find some acceptance as well as some gratitude for my life....
So while I have decreased my meds from the total amount I was on after my ACDF down to something like almost in half of the long acting med...with my PM's instruction of course...I now find that since the knee is hurting more and more I have had to raise the SA BT meds and I am allowed 5 BT meds a bay and was only taking 3 of those a day but now I am back up to taking the alloted amount for the day due to the knee.
My PM and I are still planning to get through the surgery for the knee and then after the acute post op pain which the ortho will be incharge of for a short time until he releses me back to the PM then hpefully when that post op acute pain starts to dwindle my PM and I can pick up where we left off with our slow decrease...
In the meantime I still am in school and am doing well with that.
I feel very anxious these past few days about this Out patient surgery...
Anesthesia has some draw backs and side effects that can casue me to have to go to the ER later and thus I end up with a catherter adn no sleep or rest for 36 hours and sick to my stomach...I tried to do my part about informing everyone of everything from the ortho doc, the anesthesiologist ...my Om, the facility where it will be done...etc etc...now I have done my part and will hope it all works out with minimal side effects from the anesthesia...
So please keep me in your thoughts and prayers for Wed the 25th...as this is my surgery date to fix the torn retinaculum and also a chondroplasty and artroplasty...then a leg brae for 4-6 weeks ...bummer it is my right leg so proably no driving either...
But the good news is I am generally holding it all together adn I amreasonably happy.
My neck surgery went so well and is coming along great...
Can not complain to much about that...
Thanks for reading and it is so late I gotta get to sleep. I will try and pop in and post to a few folks tomorrow morning...
Nite...
Sky
