Hello all. I hurt bad today and feel really bad. Fist time on any board so understand I'm desperate. I have in the past had two unsuccessful cervical spine fusions and wont bore u with details, but have been a chronic pain pt with contract for over 10 yrs. Meds were vicodin mscontin valium. Never violated contract and not a seeker. I am STUNNED that my pc doctor dropped many patients (the ones without health care which includes me). Was in the middle of filing for db...and I found out he dropped all his non insured pts when i called for refills! Got a big fat no! No warning...and to no avail I tried to get into a clinic and still have another month on waithing list. Been without meds for 4 months. I've taken more ibu, asprin in them months than I have in my entire life....and between the pain and the restless leg syndrome I'm now loosing my mind. And no I cannot talk doc into carrying me until I find another doc- they wont do it!? I made one run over to christ hospital, and as the doctor was walking in the room and even before he saw me I heard him boast WELL I'M NOT GIVING HER ANY MEDS. He hadnt even seen me yet I was given flexeril! Is it not bad enough I have been suffering sooooo bad - must I be treated like a felon too? Today is a very very bad day for me. I dont know what to do...every second is too much too bear.