Originally Posted by mellow
Is there anyone out there who has gotten clean, stayed clean, and taken ownership of how it impacted their families lives? It just amazes me how many people that it affects so negatively.
I can attest to the above statement.
I have come to realize that I cannot make up for the past but possess the potential to provide for a brighter future.
Yes,people were affected by my drug-seeking behavior and this is something that I will have to live with.....
for the rest of my life.
I look back and see myself in an "invisible" war that only I had comprehension of.
With any war,there are "casualties" that you don't want to be harmed but for one reason or another are nonetheless.
Once in the "fog" of addiction,it is impossible to see the extent of the damage,until the "smoke" clears and you are able to see what has transpired.
I am not posting this as an excuse but rather an explanation of the way I perceive my particular set of circumstances,without going into the "who,what,where and why" of it all.
All I can say,from the bottom of my heart,is that I am sorry that it is people like you that get caught in the "crossfire" that addiction presents.