Originally Posted by Rich5b
there is a fear that I will need to act...change...find myself? Suppose i am not there?
Have you considered medication and/or therapy as a means of elevating your mood?
Whether we like it or not,change is one constant that is inevitable.
To truly find yourself,you will have to look past the "mirror" and evaluate internally.
This includes sifting through the layers and tearing down the proverbial walls,unlocking and deactivating devices and dismantling certain alarms9disguised as defenses).
This is best done with a therapist but isn't impossible to do on your own(though I wouldn't advise it).
Don't be concerned with finding a person that you may have issue with......there will be opportunity for change,if this is the case.
For now,review your options and try not to wait too long to make a move in the direction of positivity.