I'm so sorry for your loss. I can really relate to what your going through because I lost my mom in january of this year. Tomorrow is her birthday and I'm really trying not to
let it get to me.
Along with being very kind, intuitive and generous, my mom was, for the most part, a very practical and down to earth woman. Except sometimes when it came to her children. If we were hurt,or had a problem, she hurt or worried right along with us. In fact sometimes more than we did. Whenever anything went wrong for us,she wouldn't
hesitate to move heaven and earth, if she had to, to make
it right again. How she could ride through the ups and downs of life right along side every one of her kids and still be there for the countless other friends, family members and patients in her life without fail always amazed me.
Not once, in the fifty years i've been alive, have I ever known the fear and pain that comes from being truely alone. Or the loneliness that comes from feeling unloved. Ive always had the security of knowing that mom was there when I needed her. There's no way to discribe how lucky I feel, or how greatful I am to have had that gift she gave to me. I'm only just starting to feel the void that her passing, and the loss of that security will leave in my life. But I know I'll be ok. Because she gave me that gift too.
Take Care and God Bless.