I work in ER but im not medical staff.
We still have to make visits to the resus dept to take notes etc to the doctors.
Today i walked into the staff entrance and i always walk in tentively, today i did the same and was faced with a patient who was on a bed with no curtain around him. He was young and had died of cardiac failure due to an overdose that he refused to be treated for.
I just need to vent as it really upset me. I have seen a few dead people but they were elderly and that makes things easier, but this guy was in his forties, and because of the circumstances it made it worse.
I just cant get out of my head the sight of his face. It was contorted and i thought when people die they look peaceful. This guy look pained and tortured and almost gruesome.
Sorry but at the moment its haunting me, im sure ill be fine in a few days, it was just quite a shock for me.
thanks for reading and letting me vent.