| | Loosing a Mother
I lost my mother when i was nine years old, she died while giving birth to my little brother. I is called emniotic fluid embolisim. i don't have anything of hers or even a picture. which is hard to think about. I think to myself that i am fine, and that it was a long time ago, but in reality.... i hurt all the time about it. Is it because i have no memory of her or what she sounded like? all i can remember about her is the way her hands looked and her feet. I had no mother figure nor i dad. He was in prison and never in my life. But i don't know what to do about it. SHould i get councling? How do you cope with something like that? that has happened so many years ago. I really dont think i have delt with it properly, i was so young and i didnt know what to do.
THis morning i woke up crying, i was having a dream, and i was about to see my mom in my dream. I had never dreampt about her before. But for some reason, i didnt get to see her. I woke up before i got to. I wonder what that means. For all of those out there who have lost a mother or somone very close to them, tell me waht i should do.How do i cope with this? It was so long ago and i still am grieving over it.
And i want to cry, but i think my family will think i am stupid because it has been 8 years since it happened. At her funeral i didnt even cry. I just need some help.
Last edited by shayla435; 03-25-2009 at 11:08 AM.