My dad is dying with lung cancer
Hello all, I am new to this site. I read many of the stories and the support that you all offer to each other. I guess it is cathartic just to write your feelings. My dad is very near to the end of his life. He is such a sweet and precious soul. My mom is so lost...having been married to him for 53 years. She is his angel right now, watching over him at home with hospice checking in frequently. Knowing that he is dying has been a blessing and a curse...I got to say all of the things I wanted to say to him many times over but the slow process of watching him suffer is so tortuous. I know I will be fine...terribly sad of course, but I am so worried about my mom. I don't think she'll be okay. This is her love, her whole life since she was 19 years old. I will be there for her as much as she'll let me be, but nothing can replace my dad. He is just the most remarkable person....no one in the world that I respect more. If you look up humility in the dictionary, you'll see my dad's picture--he just embodies that word. He hasn't complained once since being sick and he went from being so active at age 76---playing golf 3 times a week and getting up at 4 am each day to work around the house. Now he cannot leave his bedroom, hooked up to oxygen and on morphine all day. He can no longer talk and he can barely breathe. He seems to already have one foot in heaven as he looks far away in his eyes. He asks for no help. My mom told me this morning that she asked him if there was anything she could do for him and he simply said "just love me". I am so sad, the tears are flowing. I wish this weren't happening --I wish he had ten more years at least for my mom's sake. Please pray for no suffering for my dad and for strength and courage for my mom. Love and peace to all of you on here. Thank you.