Re: Lost both of my parents before the age of 24
I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my dad in June, he was 55. It just came as a big shock. Every time someone would come up to me to condole me, I'd say something like well we're all going to go someday. I realized that I didn't like the impression my thought process gave people so I stopped saying it.
Now I feel I'm more silent and don't smile as much as i used to. I also read a lot of news of people dying everyday (not to feel better about myself, just to know that what happened was natural and try to accept it). Maybe it's because I am the eldest and my brother and sister still need to be looked after I've become very private and only have one or two people who I can share stuff with.
I've learnt not to predict death. Though I do think that everyday about my relatives and aunts, uncles and my mom especially, what's going to happen if they die and I'm left alone.
I never made a lot of loyal friends because I've moved around a lot, somehow I feel I should find all the strength I need from within myself.
I'm not really worried about myself dying, just worried about the people I'll leave behind, especially if I die young and have children.
I hope you can overcome your problems. Maybe you could talk to a psychiatrist or a therapist. Sometimes it helps if you don't know them.