Thoughts On Death
I've noticed as of late,that I was raised to view death as a bad thing and in many aspects it's all I know(or use to).
I've placed death in the same category as I do negativity,forcing me to process it as a separate entity with common linkage.
My religious beliefs further embedded in my mind that death is to be mourned and to a lesser extent celebrated.
In order for me to make sense of it all(my life wrapped up in trials and tribulations) I am trying to embrace the celebratory aspect.
I'm probably doing this to help protect myself from any misfortunes going forward.
My previous statement seems to make me feel like a hypocrite because the logical part of me knows that I can't truly prepare myself for another individuals demise(whether or not foreseeable);especially a loved one.
The emotional part needs protecting;due in part to its' fragile nature.
Plain and simple;I just don't want to hurt anymore.
It's rather difficult to erase decades of viewing death one way in a day,several weeks or even months.
I have to try though.
Death,for all intents and purposes,is to be both respected and honored....
Which is why I feel guilty for even entertaining the notion of celebration.
When in doubt, post it out.
Last edited by Phoenix; 04-17-2012 at 02:36 AM.