Pyranthos

I can soo totally sympathize with your plight.. Im 33 yrs old, have 2 whole teeth and the rest are half teeth or worse, riddled with cavities, not to mention the fact that they are soo horribly crooked that 2 of my teeth on the bottom row have been pushed back toward my tongue, almost forming their own second row on the bottom, behind the other ones..

I try to only smile with closed lips, and when i feel that slipping, i lick my lips, tilt my head down,look away, cover my face with my hand... anything to try to hide the shameful, and mortifying so called smile. I havent had a serious relationship for a while because i now lack the self esteem to even persue romance.. I have no income, as I have been unable to land a job with my situation.. Its partially due to appearance,and partially psychological.. It looks like a train wreck, has me constantly scowling, not out of anger, but rather because of the pain as well as embarassment and dispair.

I feel hopeless.. In my current dental situation, even if by some miracle i were able to get a job dispite my appearance, i doubt i would be able to focus on my assigned task well enough to keep the job till i could afford to make the pain go away once and for all

Now, take it to the next level, i have a horrendous gag reflex, i cant even handle a plastic spoon in my mouth for more than a few seconds, so imagine me trying to wear dentures... Just not an option for me. Unfortunately, dental implants are considered cosmetic and thus a luxery and furthermore, due to that, not covered in any insurance plans or grant options..

People take for granted how nice it is to be able to eat without fighting through intense pain, or picking what u eat based on its sugar and or acidic levels, textures, or solidity.. Nevermind the impact to self confidence/esteem from feeling the need to hide your smile..

I have a very high tolerance to pain, but after 6 plus years of ever increasing pain, im soo over tolerating it.. I need financial help in the worst possible way... Implants are not a commodity someone from my economical standing can even begin to fantasize about affording.

Im afraid for my life.. And no, i am not being overly dramatic, abscessed teeth can be fatal.. Many times now my face has swollen up to unrecognizable proportions, and through a strict pain killer regiment, ive been able, thus far, to suffer through it with nothing more than prayers that it gets better... I fear that one of these times, it wont get better..

Everyone can preach that u cant get depressed about it, not everyone judges, blah blah... Spare me.. Im a normal human being with normal human flaws, and im sorry, but when i cant even function well enough to have a normal conversation due to intense pain, how am i supposed to look past that and develope a sense of "i dont care what ppl think"... Anyone in my situation will tell you, you become obscessed with it.. It controls your thoughts, feelings, actions, and hell, even when and what you consume.

It confounds me how we live in a country that pays entertainers such as sports stars, actors and the like, INSANE quantities of cash due to the revenue generated by their trade and yet countless fellow americans in my situation are suffering due to a lack of $$.

God help me, if i ever get out of this situation im in and become able to realize my potential & amass any respectable amount of wealth, im going to set up a proper charity organization for dental assistance, asthetic, cosmetic or otherwise..

Good luck with your request for financial aid! If i werent in need of the exact same thing, i would offer you assistance. Unfortunately, all i can really offer is good intentions and best wishes for you, myself and anyone else in similar situations to ours.. /prays for a better tomorrow

Farewell and God Bless