Ash4179

hi
I know i have S/A but im wondering about something and im scared of what it could be.
I cant be around alot of people. When i am i feel really insecure. Its gotte so bad that i cant even be around family members without feeling like they think im crazy or whatever. I can be sitting with a group of people and hear them talking, but i dont pay attention And then i just laugh or say oh really lol when they are done because i dont want to look like a space cadet. I stare off at nothing alot. Im scared of what this miught be.Is it something bad??????? Is that a sign of depression?? I hear "Whats with you?" Or "Are you here?" alot and im tired of people asking me that it makes me feel like they think im crazy and just spaced out. Im not on any medications or anything. Nothing feels right anymore. I dont feel like i used to. I have low self esteem/. social anxiety, and its just getting worse. I cant take a compliment i feel like they are jus trying to make me feel better, and everyone knows im really ugly. I cry about my looks and my life alot and ive really isolated myself from everyone even family members. It feel like im in a fog all the time.......