I have been pouring over this board for quite a few days and realized it was about time to introduce myself and start with my ongoing questions
About 2 years ago I went on Paxil 20 mg a day for anxiety ( i guess that is what I have )and some ocd issues. I had (have) a major obsession with the house being "spotless" and with a house full of kids that is just not possible and if the house is just not "so "I get so nasty and seem to yell and bark at anyone in my path till the house is in order. I dont know really if that is considered anxiety or what ?? I am not nervous about things in the slightest or have ever had any type of panick so what is it that I am describing ?? I want things in order and if they are not I get extremely aggitated !! I guess that is how I would describe myself.
During PMS I am just a total bear and I feel so bad for my husband and kids during those few days .
Ok so at first the paxil was awesome !! The longer I was on it the more and more less interested in life I became. I would want to sleep more and more and things just did not excite me like they once did. I felt like I was just going through the motions of life and I decided to wean off of it . I did it very slowly and it went fine and I seemed to be feeling better except for pms week then I was still a bear ! Then after a few months I started getting really irritated with the house not being in order and annoyed with the kids again so I decided to go back on it and this time it really has done nothing for me but made me more tired !! After 2 months I still feel like it never started working like it did the first time, IS that common ??
So I am now weaning off and it has been harder this time but I am determined to get off this pill because If not I will just spend my days in bed and that is just not an option ! I have a wonderful husband and beautiful children and I want to live life to the fullest !!
One blessing that came about from the Paxil though is that some of the OCD symptons I used to have ( checking locked doors,windows, making sure the oven was off about 25 times before bed ) never ever came back !! Can an antidepressant cure something in your brain and make it so it never comes back ??
SO now I am planning on talking with my family dr about what medicine would work better for me but I dont really know how to describe myself to him. The only OCD sympton i have now is the house being clean and getting really agitated with people when things dont go exacltly my way ! ( Maybe I am just a spoiled brat lol ) But I almost feel like something comes over me when I am in one of those cleaning and yelling moods ) I need a medication that makes me mellow out ! I want one that will help me loose weight because I am quite overweight and I want one that will help me get through my PMS week and I want my sexdrive back and I dont want to be tired anymore ! Is this too much ask ??
So from how I describe myself would you say I am depressed ? have anxiety problems ?? OCD ??
What drug do you feel would be the best for me ? My dr is very flexible and will work with me.
Thankyou to everyone who replies ! This board has helped me so much already