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I am really having a hard time lately with self hatred. no matter how i try to look at myself i just can't stand anything about me. i try to hide this from my kids because i don't want it affecting them. its hard cuz i've been crying almost non stop for the last 2 days. i don't even want to look in the mirror. i've never had a problem with self esteem in the past. i am being treated for a low thyroid and my doc just ran some hormone tests on me( not back yet). i would never comtemplate suicide because of my kids. i couldn't be so selfish, but i feel like i will drive my family nuts if i don't stop this. i just don't know how. its not that i just hate how i look, its i hate my attitude, my thoughts about myself, everything about myself. i'm scared. i wish i knew someone that would understand. my husband tries to help, but he's very self confident and i don't think he has a clue how i feel and how bad i don't want to feel this way anymore. thank you for listening.