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I am really having a hard time lately with self hatred. no matter how i try to look at myself i just can't stand anything about me. i try to hide this from my kids because i don't want it affecting them. its hard cuz i've been crying almost non stop for the last 2 days. i don't even want to look in the mirror. i've never had a problem with self esteem in the past. i am being treated for a low thyroid and my doc just ran some hormone tests on me( not back yet). i would never comtemplate suicide because of my kids. i couldn't be so selfish, but i feel like i will drive my family nuts if i don't stop this. i just don't know how. its not that i just hate how i look, its i hate my attitude, my thoughts about myself, everything about myself. i'm scared. i wish i knew someone that would understand. my husband tries to help, but he's very self confident and i don't think he has a clue how i feel and how bad i don't want to feel this way anymore. thank you for listening.
Hello there you should deffanantly know your not alone I went through the same exact thing plus feelings of worthlessness and felt there was no point in me even being around some how I made it through that till I got on prozac that changed my life for the better like you said your getting a thyroid test so it might be that I was tested for that too came back ok I am starting to go through these feelings again cause my Dr is changing me to Lexapro and it hasnt kicked in yet, I cant realy tell you what the solution to your problem is cause Im not a Dr but i can tell you your not alone I went through that exactly, and its not like I have a reason to feel these ways Im 27 going to graduate from the University of MI in Flint soon Im tall dark and hansome stay busy enouph to not feel alone with school fitness and work and I still feel this way so in my case these anti depressants and anti anxiety pills are good for me. Take care maybe I ll hear back from you
Meds help alot with those feelings, plus today I got my "Feeling Good" book by David Burns & just started reading some tonite. That "self hatred" is covered in there, plus all the other symptoms of depression.
I am trying to work with the book & meds, since my med failed last summer sometime & I've been trying to find a new one to work since last Oct. with no success, I realized that there has to be another way to go.