You need to pat yourself on the back about not going back to smoking. I wish I had that accomplishment. Congratulations.... if I could do that too , I'd feel alot better about myself. One bit of advice: never start back smoking again. Not even one.
Welcome by the way! I'd be willing to bet you've been reading this board for awhile . Its a good place to unload your thoughts and its the closest thing I've seen to therapy.
I would recommend a discussion with a dr . You'll probably get some help in one form or another.
Anyway, just wanted to let you know I'm pretty impressed with your stop smoking accomplishment.