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Hi everyone, Iíve just registered here. Wondering if anyone can give me some advice.
I have a doctors appointment this afternoon and I think I may be depressed although I donít know how I should broach it with my doctor.
This year has been the worst I ever remember. Iím 25 and for the first time in my life I am unable to lift myself up and believe that things will be ok.
I donít even really know how to explain it here, other than I feel completely numb, like I canít really feel emotions, not good ones anyway. Even when Iím with a group I feel somehow excluded, like Iím on the edge looking in.
My confidence is at an all time low, I know that Iím fairly attractive but I have become so self conscious and feel myself avoiding certain social situations, even going to the shops. When I do go out socially I drink too much to compensate and lately Iíve probably been drinking 4 or 5 nights a week.
I know this isnít helping but for an hour or so, I forget about things and relax somewhat. Also it helps me sleep.
I feel extremely lonely, I lived away from home for a few years and moved home a year ago. Old friends had moved on and new ones live too far away. My relationship with my parents isnít good and my sister told me this morning she doesnít know why she bothers with me! I wonder that too, it seems Iím only useful when someone wants something done, no-one ever asks how I am. When I recently broke up with my boyfriend and told my mum, I was extremely upset, she simply replied Ďwhat are you crying forí and it hasnít been mentioned since.
I feel like a failure, dreading work every day and equally dreading going home. Tears come so easy but no-one sees or pretends not to see anyway. I literally never have anyone to talk too, sure pleasantries and chit chat, but no-one actually concerned for my well being. I feel the burden of life very heavy at the minute and coupled with the fact that I am drinking a lot recently is my reason for the doctors appointment.
What I want to know is how do I approach the doctor? What do I say? And is this depression or just me feeling extremely sorry for myself?
Thanks to anyone who reads this, any advice will be greatly appreciated.