i have been having a few problems lately, namely having to tell my b/f that i cheated(everything is ok now) but when all that was sorted out i thought i would feel better but i still dont..
i dont know what it is exactley, thats probably the hardest thing about how i am feeling because i dont know why i feel bad down like this.
I just feel really down and like my life is not good enough.
I feel betrayed by '' friends'' who have let me down and the ones who have been good to me lately i feel as though they are almost to good for a person like me.
I have a job, friends & a boyfriend yet i still feel as though something is missing, as though i am wasting my life, that maybe there could be something better out there for me.
Sometimes i think, ''is this all
i am not on any medacation and dont really want to be as i am quite young and would hate to be dependant on any medecation at my age, maybe that is silly but its just how i feel.
Even as i am writing this i feel as though there is more i could be saying to explain myself but i just dont know what it is or i dont know how to say it, does that make sense?
I have been thinking lateley that i would like to move away somewhere, out of the country maybe,and start afresh.new friends, new job,NEW LIFE.I feel like that might make me happy
but i dont know, is that a good idea?
But i just dont understand why i feel like this, if you think about it, i have it all, good job, some good friends and a boyfriend who loves me very much but for some reason i am totally unhappy.
Does anyone else feel this way or are my irrational thoughts just my own??? Im so tired of feeling like this
I dont usually find it hard to open up, in fact i am normally very open and outgoing but at the moment i feel like i have all these trapped thoughts and feelings.
Does anyone understand what i mean or have any idea why i am feeling this way,from what i said is there something any of you can pick up that i seem to be missing?????
i appolgise for the very confusing writing,but i really need help so anyone who has any advice or comments i would really appricaite it.