Being crazy or normal?
I used to have severe depression for a number of years, but never did meds or counseling. In the past two years I worked through many of my problems, forced myself out socially, discovered food allergies, lots of different things that really helped.
But it hasn't all left me. About a month ago I called the suicide hotline several times. I wanted badly to jump off a building and I couldn't let the image go. I couldn't stop the pain in my stomache and the tears were just flowing like a fountain.
Only to find that a few days later suicide seemed crazy and mindless.
I wasn't manic, I just felt good again, felt I had many reasons to live and I didn't want to think about death.
I can't stop flip flopping. I think I'm okay and then SLAM. Not only mood swings but strong mind sets that can last for days at a time. I don't believe I'm bipolar but I feel like two extremely different people, sometimes even both at once.
Is this as crazy as it seems to me?