I can't take it anymore!
I'm so depressed! Ahhhhhh! I'm only thirteen years old and I HATE LIFE. EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG, ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER! I HATE MYSELF. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THE WAY I LOOK, I HATE HOW I GET SO STRESSED OUT AND I HATE HOW I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS BUT I CAN'T BRING MYSELF TO JUST CALL THEM UP AND HANG OUT WITH THEM INSTEAD OF BEING ALONE!!!!! I really need help with my life, I feel like I'm about to explode! I can't sleep, I have trouble focusing and I want to die when I think people hate me. I'm on a soccer team and other clubs at school but on weekends I just want to kill myself so bad! AHHHHHHH! My dad keeps on telling me that my life only revolves around school and the computer... I hate to agree with him, but OMG I NEED HELP. I cry so much and I just can't take it anymore! EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG! I WANT MY LIFE TO BE NORMAL AGAIN! I don't know what I'm gonna do. I need a social life, and I do have a lot of friends, and I'm usually really happy at school but on weekends I just want to lock myself in a closet and hope something comes and help me. I know I need something to do and I really want to do something other than being worthless but my mind is like controlling me and it's making me mad!!!!! I'm part asian and I'm really shy because of that. I always think I talk differently so I started shutting myself up from real life people and after years of that it's starting to get to me... WHY CAN'T I BE NORMAL?! I NEED HELP! I DON'T WANT TO BE ME ANYMORE!