I've had my issues with depression and anxiety for years.
Recently I've changed how I live my life. For a long time I drank my problems down, and alcohol is still in my life but in very small doses. But I started getting up early and running a few times a week, I started eating lots of healthy stuff. Broccoli, fruit, nuts, omega 3s, herbal teas etc...
I've been trying to do things to make my body happier, and for a bit it seemed to be working, but now it seems to all not matter at all.
I guess I'm not as depressed as I was, but I just can't seem to get any energy together to do anything. I have enough energy to run in the morning, but during the day if I'm not at work the only thing I seem to be able to do is sit around and yawn, or go to sleep.
It doesn't seem to matter how much I sleep. Every once in a while I'll have an ok day where I'm driven, but most days it's really bad.
I used to play my guitar for hours at a time...I used to go out and party with people all the time...and I'm only 21. For a long time I worked 70 hour work weeks while drinking pretty much every day. So I don't know if this is premature aging or what? I've had normalized hours for over a year now...and I still feel as tired as I did then.
I feel old and slow at 21. That can't be normal. It seems that getting up from the couch to start a load of laundry is a daunting task. Even taking a shower or brushing my teeth is hard to energy to do. I can barely play my guitar anymore because I just have absolutely no motivation to do anything.
I have big aspirations musically with my life, I expect alot out of myself but for some reason I seem to have absolutely no motivation to do any of the work to get there.
I will admit my life has gotten pretty lonerish for the last 2 years. All my "friends" abandoned me, left me stuck with huge bills (roommates) etc... and I really don't have any friends anymore. I never go out with anyone anymore...all I seem to do when I'm not at work is sit in my apartment by myself.
I don't know quite why I'm posting this. I guess I'm just looking for people that feel the same way, or some suggestions. I was so full of life at 18, and I feel so dead at 21 it's hard to believe I used to be that person. What happened to me?!?!?
It doesn't seem to matter what I do that's good for myself nowadays, it all goes for naught.
Hello my friend, You didn't mention if you are taking anything for this condition. I felt the same way, I had to push myself to work or to do anything for that matter. I lost all motivation to do anything, I would just sit in my house by myself and think about all the things I needed to do but I couldn't get myself to do them. I finally went to a psychiatrist and she put me on the meds. It's only been a couple of months but I am doing a lot better. Something you might want to consider. Take care and good luck to you
You sound just like me. Although I never had trouble with depression, a few years ago I went through some serious stress-related trauma. As a result, from all of the stress, the chemicals in my brain changed and I went through the same thing that you are going through. My doc started me on Zoloft and I was doing very very well for a few years. Then I got it into my head that I was fine and didn't need them anymore. I am back where I started again, only thing time with weight issues as a result of becoming depressed again. I, too, used to drink heavily, but now, I may have two beers every now and then. I find I don't even want it anymore.
I have been evaluated by the mental health clinic and will be starting therapy and medication. Unfortunately, it is an almost 2 month wait for my appointment. My appt is on Oct 28th and I can't wait to start to regain my life back again. I'm just plodding through the days and I can't seem to get anything done. The house is a mess! Nothing interests me.
I do understand where you are coming from. Perhaps making an appt with a psychiatrist or your GP would be a step in the right direction.
A couple of years ago I was really really tired. All the time. I found myself sleeping really long hours, I would then get up in the morning, feeling like I hadn't slept in years and go to work. The hours felt endless, I felt like I had a hangover even though I hadn't drank at all, my head felt like it weighed tons, I was irritable, short tempered, cranky, sensitive and of course, tired. Then I would go home, eat my dinner and go to bed. Sleep thru till morning and then do it all again. Repeat over a long period of time.
I went to the doctors at my Mother's suggestion, after explaining this she immediately diagnosed me as depressive - I had a lot of the symptoms. I was totally shocked. You see I had already been thru depression when I was younger - no doctor had diagnosed it then, but I knew what it was because I ended up in a hospital bed after trying to take my life. That was depression, the way I had felt then and what it drove me to, that was depression. But I had gotten better from that, I had survived that and gone on to rebuild my life, what I had now just felt like my body was slowing down and just couldn't keep up.
But she was right, I was struggling, suicide never crossed my mind but something was definitely wrong, this was not normal for a 22 year old and I was put on medication to help. It certainly did for a while.
It could well be that you are suffering from Depression, it sounds like some of your symptoms are similar to what I experienced and you already know that sitting at home isn't helping you at all. I think you must get checked out by a Doctor, there could well be some kind of physical complaint or indeed depression but you do need to get checked out. I hope that will shed light on what is happening to you.