I'm SO sorry you are feeling so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!
I totally understand you wanting to be there for your daughter's birthday!!!
Could you just make an appointment with a doctor asap, like tomorrow, and just get started on some meds right away? or even just go into urgent care and not stay, just see someone right away and get an AD to start getting better right away?
I'm really really sorry!!! I hope you can get some help asap!!!