I hate my life right now
I'm in love with someone, who doesn't know. And I'm too scared to say or do anything, because I'm scared of commitment, and rejection. I really think I love him, but I can't, I just CAN"T get myself to act on it.... I don't know what I would do if he didn't love me back. He's.. the best thing in my life, he brings this light and happiness when I see him, but after we meet up, I get sad and upset because I want to be with him so badly but I'm afraid I'll mess it up or he won't want me at all... It's just so so so unbelievably... tiring.
I wish I had someone I could count on, but I don't. I wish I had someone that said I love you and that I could cry to, but I don't. And it feels like everyone who says they care, doesn't really mean it. People are selfish, and they forget.. Life just seems like the biggest waste, and I could even see the hope in things if I had someone to talk to and who could help, but I don't. I feel like giving up....
I just want to sleep, forever... And I don't mean that in a suicide way, I just really feel so damn tired and upset and cried out, I want to fall asleep and not wake up..