| | If there is one thing....
......that would make you happy, what is it and why?
I can't seem to answer this kind of question anymore....before I thought more friends, a better job, an education, and my own place is the answer. I had all of the above and yet, I kept going back to the same unhappy person that I was. Slowly, I am losing motivation to do anything. I used to love helping people, now that is more of an irritation.
If I think of how many days in a month I am actually happy and content, that would be a day or two the most. I find that whenever I see someone achieve something I am not or something I do not possess, I get more and more depressed. Long time friends get married and started a family, others get engaged, or find boyfriends who love them, some find great jobs and eventually buy a bigger house or move to another exciting location, etc., all these while I find myself stucked and depressed. I feel left behind in many aspects of my so called life.
I think I am a nice person who is fair and caring, but why do I find myself falling for the wrong kind of people? How can they hurt me so bad? And why do people chose not to help when I needed them the most? Life is not fair and I am getting sick of it. I am sick of feeling this down all the time. What can really make someone happy? It seems that I only see things that make me unhappy nowadays....I must be going crazy.