I am almost absolutely positive that I have depression. It goes in spurts but heres how I diagnosis it:
In school we just watched a movie on depression and suicide. I realized I had alot in common with what the video was saying. I have a very low self esteem. I am overweight and not attractive at all. My sister is 3 years younger and is beautiful and thin. she often treats me badly and talks down to me. My parents it seems are ALWAYS yelling at me. I get ok grades, but nothing I do is good enough. My sister is a much better daughter. I have cut myself a few times. Not alot but enough to realize I have got a problem. I feel that im ugly and unwanted. I have really no friends, and the ones I do have don't pay any more attention to me. My family has a history of depression and my mother is taking medication for it.
I would tell them, and want to because I want to live a full life. Im afraid of taking medication because 1) one friend started taking them and she got even worse and 2) I don't want to gain weight I want to lose it.
It seems that I may eat because i'm lonely and depressed. I don't know what to do.
Please give me some advice like:
1) are there any medications that will help with my depression and help me lose weight instead of gain?
2) how can I help up my self esteem?
3) will I ever be normal?
Last edited by boicrazy3188; 10-17-2005 at 08:39 PM.