I have been fighting depression since 2002. My grandmother passed away then and she and I were extremely close. I went into the hospital, came down with tonsilitus, bronchitus, mono, and a few other illnesses at once. I lost about 30 pounds too.
My bf brought me out of my depression, we prayed together we held one another. My parents helped alot too. I have been doing well since then.
Today I find out my family dog back home was hit by a car.
I have never had to experience that before, and all I can think is at least it was not one of my siblings. I feel so sad though. It is weird I woke up this morning, and had a bad feeling, I kept hearing a dog cry for about 2 hours and I could not go back to sleep. I feel if I had called my house and told my family to keep extra close eye on him that this might not have happened. EVen though I am so far, I feel that I could have prevented it.
How do I get rid of this feeling. I am just so sad right now.