First day without depression!! - Depression Message Board

writerboybc · 08-10-2003, 05:40 PM

I don't know if it'll last, but today was the first day in about 11 years that I feel happy - genuinely happy, and I love it!

I still have the same stuff going on in my life, same problems, same concerns, and I'm thinking about them, but they are not making me depressed and they are not making me panic.

I'm still grappling with the side effects of 40mgs of Celexa: Headaches, nausea, no sex drive and occasional bursts of panic, but the panic bursts are not as bad as they were yesterday and the rest of the side effects are worth it if I can feel this way some more.

I know I'm probably babbling, but...My God...I have woken up every day for the last 11 years feeling miserable, I've sat in front of my computer and felt like crying, or even killing myself. This morning, I woke up and was glad to be out of bed and into the day. I went for a walk and everything made me happy. I was smiling without even meaning to! I went to see the people who are going to adopt my child, and I was\ excited about the fact that I'm going to have a son or daughter soon that I'm going to be seeing and playing with, not miserable that I'm not going to be the one raising him or her full-time. My mind feel...God...so clear and so peaceful. Music makes me happy, even sad music. I can even talk to my ex-girlfriend without feeling miserable anymore.

This is the greatest feeling in the world! It's probably how normal people feel all the time, but to me, it's like somebody pulled the knife out of my heart that's been there since I wasn't even a teenager yet.

Celexa is a miracle-worker!

sniffy · 08-10-2003, 07:33 PM

Congratulations on feeling great!! I wish you many more happy days.

heather

watmatters · 08-10-2003, 08:32 PM

Your story got through to me. I hope you have tomorrow shows you a day as beautiful.

One thing that really hits home to me... Although I don't suffer from depression, I am someone who feels things deeply... as a consequence my life is always up and down. However, the bad with the good. People who experience life deeply are capable of knowing the darkest depths, but this also brings a hidden blessing in that, when joy is known, it is a pleasure that few can feel.

Roll on those good days.

Signing off.

lady68 · 08-11-2003, 06:02 AM

I'm very happy for you..... :-) May this good feeling last for ever. May I ask you how long since you've been taking the Celexa?
Best of luck....

D

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writerboybc · 08-11-2003, 11:00 AM

Well, it's the day after the best day I've had in the last 11 years, and I'm still really content. I woke up again this morning with a smile on my face that I'm still wearing. It's fantastic how even-minded I feel. No ups and downs, no mind being so bogged down by negative thoughts that I can't think straight. Even my memory is coming back.

To answer your question, I've been on Celexa for about seven and a half weeks now, but I've only been on 40mg for four days.

I've taken so many drugs in the last eleven years that I've nearly lost count. I've been on Amiltryptolin, Buspar, Prozac, Paxil, Zolof, Welbutrin, Effexor, Valium, Ativan and Xanax, and there's probably more, for everything from depression to GAD, but 7 weeks on Celexa has done the trick.

I offer Celexa my personal seal of approval. After being on it for only a week, I was already feeling better.