wannabehotguy

Skip on all medications and on the psychiatrist. What you need is to create your own self love, self acceptance, and self empathy. Then you must heal shame, then you must break down negative beliefs that you have ahout yourself and other people, and last keep doing the cognitive therapy. All of the above should be taught, explained and encouraged to you in cognitive therapy. It works I have done it myself for over 2 years. It is great.

Believe me when I say that medication takes forever to work, most of the time it does not work at all and when it does work it only works for a little while but you are stuck with problems such as " How do I deal with the boy who rejected me at school then later in the day he cussed at me and made fun of me?" "How do I cope with failing two of my tests today?" The pills will not help at all with any of these situations and you will be as helpless and confused and lost as you were the day you started the medication. If you are looking to feel numb and have apathy then your thinking in the wrong direction because you need to have love , self respect, among many other things in order grow, progress, retain control of thooughts and emotions, and many other great things.

Cutting is a severe indicator that you have a lot of shame. The only way to recover from this is to heal your shame. I would do it as fast as possible, and it does not take one day, it takes many days, months, or even a year. But you will get better once you start healing shame.

What I noticed is that you said your mother didn't much care when you brought up your cutting issues. What I am percieving is that both your parents are in complete denial about what you are going through, and what your self esteem has been through and will continue to go through. This is called parental neglect. You need help from a professional cognitive therapist and NOT any of those psychiatrists who will definatly give you medication that will not work or change your behavior, and will take money out of your wallet.