mistyone

well i am a newbie to this board and here is my story in a nutshell so as not bore veryone with the details of why i am so very unhappy and rightfully so....last sept 02 i was in a nasty car crash and i was a passenger which i was stuck from this drunk who came out of a liquor store parking lot and drove right into traffic without stopping to look as i guess she was in a hurry to get home a drink her bottle, well the crash resulted for me to have back and neck surgery wherebythey took bone out from my right hip and put it into my neck at the C 5-6-7 level and fused my neck. they cut me in the front of my neck and the backside also and on my hip, well they put lots ofhardware into my neck 11 screws and 4 plates and now i am in constant pain but the doctors are fearful that i will get addicted to pain pills so they quit giving me them and now i take anti depressants but they d o not help the pain and torment i have with nightmares and reliving the crash all the time. i cant turn my neck past 11 or 3. the rest of my back hurts also but i duuno if i want anymore operations as i believe i will die from all this pain. prior to the crash i was healthy and had no limitations whatsoever, now i am invalidated by ssi as i can not work due to all this and right torn rotator cuff carpul tunnel etc, they tell me to wait 6 mos for an answer, what am i supposed to do until then live on air? tell me somebody what can i do i tryto pray but that dont pay my bills- mistyone