it's good to try, try, try. it's good because that's the only way to get a sense of "normalcy" (whatever the heck that means) in our lives, and not be cast aside, completely out of the mainstream of this society....
when you're with your son, and you take him out to the park, to play, a movie, etc., do you still feel like you're being stared at by others? or is it different when you're with him or with someone else? and finally-- i know you're capable of doing this: ask yourself if there is any basis in reality to support your thought of others staring at you, as always
be good to yourself!