pucca_chick

im so ****** off. i am in peices today about that letter i wrote, i know its what i am suposed to do but its unleashed all sorts of feelings. i cant bear sitting here, every minute goes by and i wonder if my doc has read it yet, what is she doing/thinking now, what is going to happen to me.

so i rang this morning like she told me to do last week. i did, and the stupid receptionist said i couldnt speak to her, i tried to explain, but she just said i had to ring back tomorrow morning for a telephone consulataion. but i have rung before in the morning at the right time like i did todaym,i was actually told that this was the time to ring-im so off. its torture sitting here. i feel sick today also, im tired and weak and i feel generally like im still behind in UNI and im working on thrusday and have to confront my boss again about something- great!

i know its probably not my docs fault, maybe not even the receptionist, but when she said no i was close to collpasing inm the park(were i was phoning from) into tears-and i havnt cried in a long long time.i just need to be angry at someone and i dont even care who it is. tomorrow feels so far away. i need to know about that letter, im so worried. xox