Originally Posted by deb0521
I have been depressed and anxious for about 5 weeks now. It has been three weeks since I started taking lexapro. It doesn't seem to be helping. I am also on klonipin, buspar and depakote. I am still anxious, depressed and I feel like I would be better off dead. I have gone through this many times before starting at the age of 20. I always improved on medicine. I am scared now that I won't. The last time I had an attack was ten years ago. I have been symptom free ever since. Then one morning about five weeks ago I woke up and I know that It was back. I feel like I am just existing and not living. I am 46 years old and maybe the meds are not going to work now. I am so scared. Please help. I also have depersonalization with this also.
Please realize that it is just a matter of time for your Dr. to find the right combo of meds. They will help you get out in concert with some therapy. You will be just fine as long as you are willing to get help. Follow what they ask you to do and do not be afraid to ask questions/take notes. You may think you'll remember it all, but it's best to have a transcript and maybe even a friend, family member or significant other with you.
If you have made plans about being dead and think you will act on it, please go to the hospital now. Just tell them the truth and they will help you. You'll wake up one day in the future and say, "I sure am glad I stuck it out!"
There are tons of meds now and it just is a matter of getting the right ones at the right dosages. I am about 6 months on this roller coaster, but am getting closer to having the right stuff to keep me on an even keel. I had depression for 22 years before it finally broke me. I had only sought help once briefly. The longer you wait, the worse it is.