Re: i cant go on anymore
Yes ... get out of there!!! You should be cherished and nurtured and made to feel loved and secure.
If he is not providing these basic things then he is not wanting to have a ""good"" relationship,
Raising children is never easy, even if they were entirely yours and his. Children learn what they live and the way they are living and seeing how you are treated sets them up to be in toxic relationships later. Break this cycle for theirs and your own well being.
My only other suggestion would be to run not walk as far away from this toxic relationship and get yourself some counseling... he also if he would be willing. Plus defintely the children all of them,
But above all remember no one treats you anyway but the way you "allow" them to.
stay in touch, we all care!!!