This is the first time I've posted. I have been suffering from depression for eight months now. My poor partner can't handle talking about it. I sit and cry when I'm alone, and I have lost all my confidence. When I go shopping I have to have a family member with me or I just cry in the shops, or on the streets

I'm going to lose my job now, because I've been away for so long.
I've told my doctor, and she put me on antidepressents which aren't working. I see a counsellor regularly, but as it is the NHS (UK) it is not often enough. for the last 3 months I've had self-harm thoughts which I hope I won't act upon. I told my doc this too, but she won't refer me to a psychiatrist, even though I've asked.
I found this site after a long long search.... I need to talk to people of a like mind, because I don't want to bring all my family down. Please help!