Need To Get Out Of This - Quick
Hello All, grateful if you can help me. I am looking to identify what type of depression I have so that this time I can tackle it more succesfully than in the past.
I am currently in the depth of an episode and doing nothing other than just surviving. I don't eat and just smoke constantly, I can't focus on anything and although I go to sleep wake up at 2-3am and then my brain goes into full depressive mode, where I just shiver and cry. I can't wash and can't even give my 2 children any attention. This makes me worse. I need to get better and soon as in 4 days I go back to work after xmas break but just don't know how I can do this at the moment.
I have a very well paid job, and am petrified that if I am unable to go back then I will lose my house and family
I first had depression in 1998 and have had 5 major do's since then - each lasting about 3 weeks. I then manage the situation so that I come off medication, but then fall back into depression as a result. I think my depression is triggered by social inadequacies. I hate depression and feel sorry for my family and fear the future - please help