I can't wait until midnight so that I can go to sleep. I haven't ever been so depressed during a holiday season in my life.... and this is my first year at home for NYE in many many years. I just don't want to go to bed before midnight, that will make me feel like a real failure. Does anyone know what I mean?
I am sitting around watching a movie trying to figure out if I want to switch over to the countdown when I realize I am by myself so what is the point? I have no one to celebrate with. I guess I just have to hope next year will be a better year and it is not the end of the world that I am alone this year.
Major Depressive Disorder With Psychotic Features
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Borderline Personality Disorder
Generalized Anxiety Disorder