I've been reading the posts for this thread for a long time, trying to find answers, which helped me a lot, so first of all i have to thank you all for sharing your experiences.
I've been diagnosed with depression by two therapists some years ago but did nothing about it, in fact i stop seeing them mostly because i felt no empathy with none of them and has i live whit it since i was about 15 (i an 23 now) i always though i could manage it and it was always just a matter of time to get on my feet again.
Well a year ago the situation starts to get out of my control, time passes and i see no improvement, on the contrary, i got more and more distant from everybody, terrible mood swings, anxiety attacks, suicide thoughts and attempt...
So what i always tried to avoid happen: i am on antidepressants: cipralex
, (i think you know it as lexapro
Just in the first days whit xanax i realize how dumb i was to fear it, it feels so good not being anxious all the time, i'm still extremely sad but at least it doesn't bother me as much, which is great!
The first days where great, i was more outgoing, i start talking and feeling better even though i know it's just the lack of anxiety duo to xanax, the cipralex it's not working yet; but a couple a days ago it starts all over again, the extreme sadness, the revolt, the numbness towards everything... what's happening? I was so optimistic but now it seems like "one step forward, two steps back". Is this normal? Was it just the euphoria from the first days on medication and now i'll have to be patient until it kicks in again?
Sorry about the testament, i'm still
waiting for an appointment with a therapist, so i was hopping to find some answers here.
Thanks for any help or advice in advance!
Best regards to you all.