God bless your mom for going through what she did, and coming out of it successfully!!! That says sooooo much about her strength of spirit and mental agility; about her will to survive, and about her drive to live!!!!
what a wonderful post you have put up here lilme. i know it will encourage many others.
kaos, like lilme said, it's never too late!! NEVER!!! lilme explained how her mom is now dealing with life, how she is doing things that make her happier.
now, that you came out of the darkness--you can find things that will make you feel better, things that will fill YOUR life with positive energy; all you need to do is do some thinking about what it would be that would make you feel good spending time doing. what your interests are: photography, exercise, "communing" with nature/hiking/walking in the woods, arts, going to a museum, bowling, planting a garden (yes, men garden too!
and watching it grow (i think that's one of the most self-satisfying things to do--for me that is, as it is for lilme's mom); animals; becoming a "big brother" to some underprivileged kid (God bless them)--they really need guidance and role models!...these are just a few ideas that you may want to think about doing in your spare time. if you have some money stashed aside, i'd say go on a trip. a trip that you've been dreaming to take for a long time. for me, it's about seeing the world, the people in it, and experiencing another lifestyle, another culture. if i could, i'll travel every chance i get.
you can do anything you want, kaos. you've overcome something really powerful that's been holding you down for a long time. now, that's also saying something about you and your strength and power!!!
it's time you gave yourself a reward!!!!!!
go for it!!!