Re: Self Analysis of my own state of mind...
your situation is a tough one. i know that alcohol and nicotine are extremely powerful addictions, and it takes much WILL on the part of the person involved to get over these addictions. they aren't only psychological, but they become physical after a while--especially alchoholism. when people give up drinking after they've been drinking for years, they may develop hallucinations and horrible nightmares. it truly is no joking matter. that is why most people cannot give it up without going into detox centers. it is really unfortunate, but the alchohol and the nicotine takes control over the person, especially if that person has additional problems, life problems, etc. your mom probably feels really bad now that her husband left and her daughter doesn't get along with her. she doesn't care anymore. she sounds really depressed and seems to be living her days with a "devil may care" attitude. unfortunately, she needs to want to change, at least a little; she needs to care about life, her life--a least to some degree, to want to get "better." you said you've already tried everything, that is, your dad did. well, she has to WANT to try it. i'm sorry, but that's the only way i see anyone living with such horrible addictions having the chance to get out of them. maybe she can do something for you, since you're her son? and you seem like a very loving son, to care for your mom. i think that is wonderful!!!
sorry i can't be of more help.
Be kinder than necessary,
Because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle...