I wasnt nervous about her it was more about talking about things I had kept hidden for so long. I wasnt able to post Yesterday as I didnt get home until 8pm in the evening and I was so exhausted. I didnt realise how exhausting it could be - I just collapsed on the sofa and made sure I went to bed early to get plenty of sleep.
I was very proud of myself - I found myself talking about the issues around my dad's death that I had been playing over and over again in my mind - things I had never been able to talk to, to anybody before. She did a very good technique of making me feel relaxed and safe and visualising it like I was seeing it on a video that I could fast forward etc and beginning to make the images less powerful.
It was very difficult and very scarey but I definitely felt that it was productive and that I would do well to keep it up - she definitely was the right person for me to go to she knew exactly what she was doing and was somebody I could talk to.
I am just glad the first one is over.