but im preparing myself to just do it, otherwise im cornered back were i started.
zoe and lilme know what they're talking about. you have been through this before, pucca. you know what it entails and what you have to do. you don't have to fear the unknown anymore.
like zoe said, 'be truthful and (very) honest," and like lilme said, "put everything on the table." you know this is the way to go, and your chance of being heard. if keira told you to show the dr. the arm and self-harm, do it. it may just work in your favor, and it may show the GP that you are in true need of help
is it possible for keira to speak to this GP on your behalf? after you see him/her, that is... i'm thinking that keira can explain more to the GP--more about what's been going on with you; more about your struggles; more about the fact that you DO need help.
pucca--you can do this!!! if you went so long and you battled this so much, you sure as heck can do a bit of talking to a GP!!!
we're here for you, girl!!! break a leg!
good luck, good luck, good luck!
hugs from across the pond! then theres the small matter of possibly explaining that im not a serial GP head hunter and that before i just was frustrated and she misinterprated what i wrote
p.s. if the GP asks you anything about the past, and why you did not stick with your last GP, you can simply say that you did not get the help you needed from the last GP. you can say that she helped you as much as she could, but you feel in your heart that you need more than that, and you just came to a standstill with her. tell the new GP that you are not feeling any better, and you feel that you can't go on being this way; you can't function in daily life, you've began to isolate, you're afraid of leaving your house, you're not doing well at school, etc. --so, that is the reason you are reaching out to him/her.
pucca dear, the more open you are, the more likely it is that you WILL get the help you desperately seek.