im crappimg myself again. help people, i see the new GP tomorrow. god its worse than the last TWO times. this time i have to go in with nothing written out, apparently this time i need to just say it, block out all the restraint and just spill it on the floor. i also have been advised to show her the harm if she asks-i can never tell how thatll go, sometimes i keep hold of myself by clinging for dear life, other times i cant handle it and i physically cant seem to show people. but im preparing myself to just do it, otherwise im cornered back were i started.
im nervous, she will have all my bloody notes, im praying she doesnt get influenced by the other opinions, then theres the small matter of possibly explaining that im not a serial GP head hunter and that before i just was frustrated and she misinterprated what i wrote. theres a very large wall to climb over, if this doesnt work im terrified. i will have to find a new surgury all togther
and its so much in just 3 weeks, losing the psych help, losing my docs help, losing UNI counselling(not that big a deal lol), then losing another bloody doc before i even started.i think all means of trusting people then will be crushed to complete dust then. why does the *** fall out of everything i go to do!
well, wish me luck-any tips, how do you get a GP to listen(god thats like a joke