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Old 06-04-2007, 02:11 PM   #1
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Old 06-04-2007, 02:24 PM   #2
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Trg, maybe it is just the weather that is getting you today and tomorrow the sun might be shining again. Trg, you have been sorting through some things lately and sounding better every time that you post. If you keep it up one day you might be able to start weaning off some meds. How was your Saturday with your son this past week?

 
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Old 06-04-2007, 11:44 PM   #3
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When I get genuinely angry I feel better. You should try to get mad and let it all out. Do you see doctors? Could you try this with them?

 
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Old 06-05-2007, 03:08 AM   #5
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TRG - I was once in a place as you are now, with the feeling that tomorrow would be no better and tomorrow would be no better, ditto, ditto, ditto...................
then one day - it was better. I know not seeing you son isn't helping and ditto there too. I basically had NO CONTACT with my son from the age of 11 til now, he's 22! I'd be lucky to see him 4 times a year, so I know the pain of that very well. He will not be a child forever. Soon HE will be making HIS OWN DECISIONS as to how often he wants to see you. Then hopefully, he will want to see you more. But how long you see them for isn't necessarily the point, it is the quality of time you spend together that is important.
Hang on there.
THINGS WILL GET BETTER. (just not as fast as you want them to)!

 
Old 06-05-2007, 05:27 AM   #6
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i'm all for pdocs, but i've been reading about T's pdoc for a while now, and i truly believe his doc is a moron, unfit to shine T's shoes, let alone practice psychiatry!!! for real.

i'm just sorry T lives there where the waiting lists never end!!!!
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Trg, can you go ahead and get on that waiting list then? You have nothing to lose by getting on it. How are you today?

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Old 06-08-2007, 06:50 PM   #9
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Old 06-08-2007, 09:17 PM   #10
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hey T,

can you focus on what's NOT in your head sometimes? you know, take the focus off of yourself. completely. get totally engrossed in something outside of yourself. too much idle time--you know this--will lead to too much introspection, which will then lead to too much sadness and despair.
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When you stop self injury it feels like you lost your best friend. There is this empty feeling at the base of your stomach.
Trg, the SI helps you to release feelings and feel in control? What can you do in these areas to fill this void?

 
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Old 06-10-2007, 06:35 PM   #13
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I approach people with the mindset that at some point they are going to hurt me. This is not a productive thought and I have severed friendships before they began but it keeps me safe.

I have done that most of my life. I get it. I am trying to break out of that habit but it is a tough habit to break. I have been making some new friends, but I struggle with the desire to pull away. I don't know how it will turn out...

All that to say I understand.

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I approach people with the mindset that at some point they are going to hurt me. This is not a productive thought and I have severed friendships before they began but it keeps me safe

hey T,

like SOE, i did that (still do to some extent), not for fear that they hurt me, but i don't really know why....just like SOE said, i always get this feeling of "pulling away" from them, even from close friends. even mentioned a couple of times, and in my own thread that i haven't even called a girl whose been trying to contact me for the past two days (and in whose wedding i'm supposed to be a bridesmade), and i just don't feel like calling her back. i don't know why. i don't feel like talking to people for some freakin reason. i'm ok otherwise. maybe i'm just not that social..maybe i don't NEED as many pple around me as others do, i don't know. i don't care if i meet pple and talk to them for a while, but i don't want/feel like talking to them for 1/2 and hour or an hour, and i don't like phones. maybe i spend my whole day with people at work and i can't stand to see others when i'm on my off days. i don't know. it 's very weird. it's something i need to talk to the therapist about. but now that they changes insurances, i have to wait and see if i can still go to the one that i've barely gotten to feel comfortable with. it's really a freakin' drag, let me tell ya.

i hope you're having a tolerable day today.
my best to you!!
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Trg, I can totally understand what you are doing (I've never done it so I don't understand it that way but I can understand having a safe retreat). The only thing that I can think of now is learning skills to protect yourself from others (boundaries, communicating your feelings, etc.). As you probably know, I had to learn boundaries. I went from none to very functioning boundaries. You have been very hurt in the past, so that fear trigger would be very large. I had some triggers that I had to overcome and they had nothing to do with abuse and they were strong (boundary issues). Trg, you can learn these skills and learn to decrease your response to triggers so that you can feel safe coming out of your "retreat".

 
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