I'm in a really bad place...
I'm suffering from major depression. I don't know what to do. I'm not suicidal, at least. I just feel like spending every moment in bed sleeping and not facing the world. In addition to obvious mental health issues, I have a number of physical health issues which may or may not be related to my depression. I am constantly sick to my stomach, my chest is tight, I have a almost constant shortness of breath, and I have a bit of a nervous tic. I feel like my mind is always racing at 200mph, and I just want to scream and then cry.
It's gotten to the point that I cannot do my job anymore. I feel completely worthless to my company. That is too bad, because I used to really enjoy what I do. I am currently seeking a medical leave of absence from work. My primary care physician wants me to see a psychiatrist in order to fill out the necessary paperwork for the leave of absence. It's turning out to be harder to get in to see a specialist than I thought it would be. I don't need to see a psychiatrist 2 months from now... I need one today! I don't really want to lose my job over this... I just know that I can't face it right now.