Ever feel like you have tons of stuff on your mind but can't think about anything. can't talk about it. write about it. nothing. its just there but your not sure "what" is there.
*sigh* i wish i could just write what it is i want to write but i dont' know what that is. maybe i'm imagine it and I really have nothing on my mind. i dont' know. i guess i better go to bed. i guess i'm so tired i can't think about anything. maybe thats a good thing
Oh, now I am thinking of something. Sometimes it seems i WANT to stay depressed. its a comfort zone for me. my counselor told me a while ago that depression can be a comfort zone. i feel my medication working well. i'm not feeling suicidal much if at all anymore. but then i think about being in the real world again. its scary. even being a christian believing in God its scary to be "normal" again to face life, to be strong ...now it seems i dont' want to be ok. i want to be depressed.
well, just some thoughts today.