I was/am an avid runner, golfer and fanatical exerciser. Prior to my big crash I found myself not running as much,not working at much not golfing as much, and also not enjoying the activities when I did do them. I know that I was also using running/workingout to extremes, I took a healthy endeavour and turned it into an unhealthy obsession. I ended up stopping running/working out completely, would still muster a bit of energy to play the occasional round of golf or go to the driving range.
I ended up in the ER almost two weeks ago because of a severe depression episode. I am now on Wellbutrin XL and am seeing a psychiatrist. She is encouraging me to get out and exercise, but also reinforcing the fact that I will not be able to do the amount I did do, nor should I...that was unhealthy too. So I am starting to run, just came back from a short one. I am focusing on using running and working out as additional therapies to control my depression. Exercise does release endorphines which give you that "runners high" "feel good" feeling.
It's such a complicated balancing act, cuz I can turn just about anything into an obsession. I quit drinking in January as that was becoming a problem for me too.
But enuf about me
I would really encourage you do exercise a little bit, build up gradually, know that it is great therapy for you, and don't try to compare your ability now to your ability before.
The body is very resiliant, and you will make great strides if you just take it easy....the key word is consistency, so make a plan and stick with it, even if it is only for 1 week.
You will be amazed at what you can accomplish!!
Good luck and happy exercising!!