Friday again, and I am looking forward to the weekend. Last weekend my husband was away and I got hit with BAD depression. I would have felt bad even if he was around. I’m hoping I’ll be able to enjoy this weekend.
After 17 days, I saw my therapist last night (he was out of town). I told him I’d been fighting my eating disorder, but it wasn’t going well. I suffered crippling depression 3 weekends in July. If I don’t eat I feel happy, as soon as I try to gain weight I get painfully depressed. At first I didn’t realize the connection. I don’t know if I want to trade starving with intense depression. He said, unfortunately, that was part of the recovery process. So I’m planning to eat this weekend. I stood on the scale this morning and am at the lowest weight I’ve been. It’s not a new low, I’ve been here before, but not in a month. I was surprised as I don’t feel thin and thought I was doing better.
Many thanks to these boards (and ExTra) for keeping me company when I was really down last weekend. Who knows what I would have done to myself otherwise.
I haven’t heard from my mom since I skipped my grandma’s funeral last week. (We weren’t close and I don’t get along with my family.) I’m guessing my mom is mad at me. That’s OK, I’d rather have the silent treatment than the guilt trip.
Hope you all have a super weekend! Stay busy and stay happy.
Last edited by MariaBB; 07-27-2007 at 10:28 AM.