Originally Posted by Sannah
Hi Chickpea, IMO your issues are just not being addressed adequately with resultant solutions. When I solved my issues it didn't happen overnight and I had to search and search for my answers. Do you want to give us more of your background and the issues that you have had to face?
Thanks for your response
I'll try to give some more information...
You mentioned about solutions and that reminded me of one problem I've had with therapy. I know the whole idea is to talk about things, but I thought that there would be something more to therapy than just me talking about my feelings. None of the therapists have really ever done any exercises with me - we talk about how I feel and so on, but not how to change that. Is therapy supposed to have homework? That may sound stupid... btu I think I'd like homework! Then I'd feel like I was doing something towards progress....
As for my background, there is nothing particularly wrong in my life which makes it even harder to understand why I'd be the way I am. My parents are still together, they are financially comfortable and so on. However it has never been a 'close' family at all. I think I started self harming in a way when I was young, below ten. I remember hitting myself at night, and I always had trouble sleeping.
The issues I've had/have are:
Feeling depressed and suicidal, particularly since I was about 13
Self harm (hitting, cutting, burning)
Poor sleep and nightmares
Anxiety, I've now virtually 100% isolated myself.
Hallucinations (but I think its a spiritual attack, docs don't agree. I wasn't allowed to drive for a year over this part)
Eating issues (started off with me stopping eating, and became very thin. Now I eat too much and make myself sick all the time)
Sexual assault at ages 13 and 15 (I'm embarassed that those incidents still bother me over 5 years on!)
Probably a consequence of he above issue, I have an extreme aversion to sex which is actually causing problems lol.
I've not been diagnosed with anything though. Is that the kind of information you meant?