I generaly feel uneffected and apathetic by the thought of death. Although i think if i was actually faced with death, out of my control. eg, a phyical illness, i would freak out. which is strange, as the thought of suicide doesn't scare me much.
As you said, you are not affraid of life, although living while feeling very depressed, is not enjoyable, so the thought of death seems like the only way out. I think the two aren't very comparable though as one is existing, and one is not existing, the question is rather hard to answer i can't really think of a good answer really.
thanks for replying to my post btw