is this depression or something else?
I am 18 and I am wondering if I am experiencing depression or something else. I do have alot of anxiety but there are times, I would say maybe once every two months or so where for 1-2 days, I just want to cry and be left alone. I feel incredible sadness and wonder what it would be like to just die and not have to deal with this anymore. I basically lay in bed or on the couch with the lights off and blinds closed. I don't feel like eating or doing anything. Then, as quickly as this comes on, it goes and I am feeling relatively normal (as normal as a teen with pretty bad anxiety can feel).
Also, I recently saw an alternative medicine doctor and was given an amino acid (5 htp) for my anxiety. The amino acid is supposedly a natural serotonin reuptake inhibitor. However, I am 2 1/2 weeks into taking this and just went through a little 2 day bought of sadness. Shouldn't the 5htp have prevented my feelings of sadness? Is this depression or not because I am not always sad? I am really confused and any help would be greatly appreciated, I feel so alone through all of this.