Anyone who knows me here knows I don't get along with my doctor but do to shortages I am stuck with him. I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon for the usual garbage and I want to cancel it but I need the prescriptions as if I go off all of them its just a matter of time before I end up in the hospital again. I have gone to his office with a completly open mind and was very upfront with him, I have gone to his office and basically lied my *** off to get out of his office as fast as possible both approachs led to the same result which is nothing. I know he is not really listening to my answers and by this I believe he does not believe a word I say. I told him I had days where I just cut myself off from society because I was pretty sure something bad was going to happen and he said to get out of the house more often as it is not healthy to stay in all of the time. This man is in charge of my mental health and I am suppose to follow his orders yet I don't trust him enough to cut my grass. Tomorrows appointment will be determined by how I sleep tonight, how paranoid and self conscious I am walking into the hospital, how long I have to wait in the office and the way he calls me into his office. Nothing to do with how I actualy feel, nothing about the difficulty of my day to day and nothing about the mess in my head. Make sure you take your meds, make sure you don't drink or use drugs and get out of the house more -- I can predict the future and thats what he is going to say.
Major Depressive Disorder With Psychotic Features
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Borderline Personality Disorder
Generalized Anxiety Disorder